fyi it won't be in chronological order. i think i'll just post whatever that comes to my mind. sighh. alright nevermind. i'll just do whatever i want to -_-

090625 - 10:09PM
the first time i've went to the airport to welcome any artist.
the first time i saw ft island in singapore.
the first time i saw ft island in real life.
the first time i saw seunghyun.
the first time he looked at me.
and after that i screamed my lungs out, called jamie, screamed my lungs out.
it was the worst day of my life in the afternoon, but this day became one of the best days of my life, even if it was a moment that lasted for a second.

090626
ft island in singapore.
i was stuck at home all day, as much as i wanted to get out to go look for them.
stalking soompi all day long.
couldn't help but wonder whether they were having fun.
stayed up to finish my fanboard.
hesitated whether or not i should sleep.
slept in the end, but...

090627
i woke up late, at 7.
unlucky day again, i thought when i rushed to habourfront.
thank god louisa and michelle helped jamie and me write our names.
reached stjames, looked for mich.
skip all the unnecessary stuff
the second time i saw seunghyun.
i had seen hongki, but the moment i set my eyes on seunghyun, everything else seemed blur to me. didn't even glance at the other members, just seunghyun and seunghyun.
all my attention went to him, even if he didn't look at me. well i don't know whether he saw me or not, but we didn't have any eye contact.
i knew it was too late to call out, but i still did anyway.
it was like a dream, i was just a road away to get to them.
i almost died waiting for ft to come out during the showcase. the music continued to play for more than 15 minutes after 3.
squeezing with the other fans despite how much i hated crowded places, it didn't matter anymore- i was going to see ft island on stage, real life.
.. and when they finally appeared, my heart was beating like it was running a marathon.
the showcase was amazing.
seunghyun looked into my eyes countless times.
i'm not scared to admit that i couldn't get my eyes off him, it's kind of scary if you think about it.
the only time i looked away was when i looked at hongki to see if he saw jamie's board, and he looked at me. and yes he did see jamie's board.
every single time seunghyun looked at my fanboard, he smiled to himself.
a really biased boy here: song seunghyun.
if you did watch the videos on RAZORTV, you would notice that seunghyun kept looking at a particular direction, around his front-right. ( i repeat, his right. which means it's our left. )
that was where i was. not boasting or anything.
after the showcase, went straight to the airport.
waited and waited, the number of primadonnas were increasing and increasing...
when ft finally came, i wasn't thinking, i charged straight into the crowd and towards seunghyun. it wasn't hard to spot his head, his hair and hair colour was amazingly nice.
i literally used my fanboard to block his way, hoping that he would actually take it but i think he didn't understand my intentions, so he didn't take it.
and i got pushed by the security guard too.
at that time i wasn't even thinking, i just grabbed seunghyun's wrist for a second, then let it go after i finally came to my senses again. the last thing i saw before i stopped following was seunghyun smiling to himself.
that was it- no more ft in singapore, no more seunghyun in singapore.

just only two days in singapore.
they said they might come back in december, let's just hope they'll keep their word.
and when they really do come, i'm not stopping myself from going to see them.

today, during math paper.
i was doing my math paper, and seunghyun just invaded my mind.
this is bad.
yesterday i was running during pe, seunghyun invaded my mind.
he's taking over my mind.